All Rants

I still can’t seem to have anything that is uniquely my thing. I feel bad about being upset though because I feel like I’m gatekeeping public things.

Guys I'm not going to lie I just got used and cheated on by the guy who I feel was like the love of my life, i don't understand how he could do this to me. He left me for the girl he has 13 years of history with. As soon as he and that girl got back into contact, whatever me and that guy had going on was over as soon as it started. And to be honest the fact I got this attached makes sense. I was his first everything. So why couldn't he just chose me instantly when it came to having options. If you loved me why was the right option her? He used me for pleasure and now he secured a spot in her life and abandoned as soon as he realized she'd let him stay. he did all of this a day before our first year anniversary. The pain is so much I can't take it. Its too much for my heart. And since he wanted to stay friends, the fact i'm in his life but it will never be like how we used to be before he left me for her.

basically I rant about this often but I can’t fit this full situation in only 1000 characters. My ex bsf has been stalking me I’m sure of it. Little things like what I’m about to tell you may not seem like much but they all add up into something bigger and weirder. I have 3 years of evidence of her being WAY creepier but anyway this kinda just concerned me. I was friends with her cousin, like rlly close then had a fallout right after me and ex bsf stopped being friends. what’s crazy is that I just noticed she’s cleaned out her friends list but never unfriended me??? We don’t talk and I was confused like I didn’t notice this whole time til now?? I was thinking like she likes to keep tabs on me but wtf is she gonna do with my ROBLOX?? see I sound crazy every time I accuse them of something it’ll make so much more sense if I was able to fit the full situation. Ik there’s something weird going on AGAIN. btw this bitch managed to get my number and idk how…

I just moved in and im 17. and my school is academic and a party school. i feel abnormal i don't have a friend group which everyone seems to already have my social battery dies quick im still disappointed in myself for not getting into a better school even though i go to a top 50 and i know this is some people dream private school it's in a nice area but im not on the main campus everyone ive met in my honor thing program is nice but it's very white and im not meeting as many people who i think i could be friends with and i don't know where else to do that so i'm nervous im 17 so i cant get into bars/clubs and im sitting in my dorm alone and literally everybody is out and i don't have close friends from before college or right now yet so theres no one to talk to except my mom who didn't pick up i know i have time to find people but why do i have to wait when everyone already seems to have people. my image of what college was going to be is dying i dont want this to be like high school.

There's another person in my head, and I'm struggling to accept his permanence. He's been there since 2021 to early 2022 I believe, back when I thought he was an imaginary friend or something. Since then, my everyday life has become a little more complicated and confusing. Often I can't tell if I'm the author of my own thoughts. Things are very frustrating and especially confusing, but love him dearly. I spend the majority of my free time writing down things I know about myself and him when for those moments where I'm foggy headed. I wish things could go back to how things were, but I don't know where or who I'd be without him. I feel so guilty all the time for thinking that, and I know he can hear some of it. He's expressed to me many times about his desire to be free from this body as well. I don't think its particularly personal though. I'm not in a position to seek help as of now, and I'm worried that he wont be heard. I'm really sorry.

There’s this girl in like 4 of my classes and she’s so fine, I know she eats lunch alone and I wanna ask if she wants to sit with me during lunch but I’m scared to ask because for some stupid reason I’m a little scared of rejection even though me and this girl have talked before and she’s really cool

Maybe one day I can finally leave this abusive, toxic household of mine. My dad works overseas and whenever he calls I just go to the place of the floor where I sleep on to study instead. I barely get any sleep but I still keep studying. I'm in 10th grade, and almost every friend of mine is already moving schools..I'm alone. Always has been now. Being at home just makes it worse. I hope school gets back soon so I can get out of this household, I prefer to sleep there than in school. My parents and my sister each have a room meanwhile I sleep on the floor, whenever I bring it up they're saying I'm ungrateful.

I feel like my friend group is kind of pushing me away. So we have this group chat, let's call the main members W, J, A, and F. Throughout my last school year, me, W, and J were really close friends in class. Eventually, J decided to make a group chat with me and W, and A (who was J's friend, I met her but don't really know her too well, tbh I don't think she likes me that much but I'm not gonna hold a grudge abt it). J also added her sister, F, later. We chatted in the gc like normal at the start of summer, the only catch being that I go dead silent for weeks in between because I go to my dad's (he doesn't know I have a phone at my moms lol). But lately, J, A, and W have barely been responding to me, W worst of all. Occasionally J or A will respond to me, but W has just been straight ghosting me. And after venting once about her family, W left the gc with no explanation. Hope this clears up soon, because school for me starts in literally 4 days.

In addition to my mother always blaming me for everything, my so called *partner* has been ignoring me for MONTHS, he's talking to everyone. My friends, his friends, but me? Oh no he leaves me on delivered every time. To think HE was the one who asked me to be his partner and yet HE'S the one ignoring me??? I dislike what he's doing but I can't even talk to him about it because when he calls me he'll just ignore it.

I hate. How my mother keeps hitting me and pulling my hair and calling me harsh names when I do ONE mistake. I accidentally threw a bottle at my sister's back when it was supposed to hit the trash can and she them proceeded to shame me and pull my hair out of my head?? I'm so fed up with her. But if my sister does that to me, she's all "You deserved it" my sister would pour hot water on me, throw heavy things to my face and THAT'S PERFECTLY FINE???????? I hate it here.

i need money to move out as soon as i can and get away from my parents but nobody wants to fucking hire me

BROOOOO. I was just introduced to my 1st hour Honors Reading teacher. When I say I could COLLECT the fandoms I knew that were in that room. For starters, there was a GIANT TADC (The Amazing Digital Circus, on case you didn't know, go watch it it's on YouTube) poster, a Gravity Falls (It's on Disney+, go watch it.) poster, AND HEATHERS AND HAMILTON MAGNETS (two popular peak musicals you can find slime tutorials on yt) !!! I'm really scared still cuz this is a new school but that low key made me feel so much safer 😭 If any of yall have any tips about school and keeping good grades, making new friends, that typa shit, pls let me know!! -OS☆

i just keep getting mad for the smallest things, and i just feel stupid when i do, but i can't help it, the more stupid stuff i do, the more frustration builds up

This is your sign to write a response to someone struggling you see on here. Even if their post was more than a month ago, it could still help them by just knowing that someone cares.

i hate my life but i feel i grateful for hating it

Been feeling down lately, dont really know, what to do about it. :/

I like my men meaty and I remember my dad took me into this Chinese restaurant and HOLY FUCK the server was SO fine I never wanted to be dominated more than in that moment like

I’ve been doing cyber school since middle school- and it’s finally my last year. And of course all of the sudden they start implementing new things, such as mandatory video call check ins every single week. I feel so anxious abt this bc I have no clue who you people are I don’t want to talk to you and I certainly don’t want you to see me. But if I don’t, I’ll get kicked from the cyber. I know it seems like something silly but I really hate this because I’m getting my work done as I always have and I rarely have questions. Just the thought of having to speak to whoever on the staff stresses me out, let alone being on camera. I’m struggling with social anxiety enough as it is, and now I have to do this every week for the entire school year. I loved cyber specifically because I DIDN’T have to speak to anyone…my anxiety is so bad it takes so much for me to even send an email if necessary…and I just hate that I’m like this bc why can’t I just be normal-

okay so i have the final day of soccer tryouts for highschool tomorrow and im so scared, they already selected the varsity and jv team and there are two more teams left, the problem is that there are a lot of sophomores and freshman competing to be on the higher of the two teams and there are players that are less good and that I know will be making the higher of the two teams, but I’m just very scared because I’m kind of in between being really good and okay and I’m just really scared because I don’t wanna have to play with beginners and I feel like I’m not going to make the top of the two teams

I may be wrong. But it frustrates me a bit. A certain influencer they basically whined until they got what they wanted. Then stepped away. Coming back off and on. I also caught them in a lie or 2. Others apparently didn't notice it. Yes in appearance they were having a hard time, but don't decieve those who follow you wio you are trying to garner attention from. Of course I don't know what they went through behind closed doors. So I really don't know how to feel about them. I wanted to believe them but it's like once they got whatever they were looking for bye bye followers for awhile anyway. I don't like that because I feel misled and decided. I still believe they're a good person, they just went about thing's wrong imo. Idk.