All Rants

I like my men meaty and I remember my dad took me into this Chinese restaurant and HOLY FUCK the server was SO fine I never wanted to be dominated more than in that moment like

I’ve been doing cyber school since middle school- and it’s finally my last year. And of course all of the sudden they start implementing new things, such as mandatory video call check ins every single week. I feel so anxious abt this bc I have no clue who you people are I don’t want to talk to you and I certainly don’t want you to see me. But if I don’t, I’ll get kicked from the cyber. I know it seems like something silly but I really hate this because I’m getting my work done as I always have and I rarely have questions. Just the thought of having to speak to whoever on the staff stresses me out, let alone being on camera. I’m struggling with social anxiety enough as it is, and now I have to do this every week for the entire school year. I loved cyber specifically because I DIDN’T have to speak to anyone…my anxiety is so bad it takes so much for me to even send an email if necessary…and I just hate that I’m like this bc why can’t I just be normal-

okay so i have the final day of soccer tryouts for highschool tomorrow and im so scared, they already selected the varsity and jv team and there are two more teams left, the problem is that there are a lot of sophomores and freshman competing to be on the higher of the two teams and there are players that are less good and that I know will be making the higher of the two teams, but I’m just very scared because I’m kind of in between being really good and okay and I’m just really scared because I don’t wanna have to play with beginners and I feel like I’m not going to make the top of the two teams

I may be wrong. But it frustrates me a bit. A certain influencer they basically whined until they got what they wanted. Then stepped away. Coming back off and on. I also caught them in a lie or 2. Others apparently didn't notice it. Yes in appearance they were having a hard time, but don't decieve those who follow you wio you are trying to garner attention from. Of course I don't know what they went through behind closed doors. So I really don't know how to feel about them. I wanted to believe them but it's like once they got whatever they were looking for bye bye followers for awhile anyway. I don't like that because I feel misled and decided. I still believe they're a good person, they just went about thing's wrong imo. Idk.

why i should stay if no one wants me here?

Goodmorning baby muahh 💋 Have a great day!

Loyalty..... I truly hate unloyal people. My husband is so unloyal and I absolutely hate it. I just know that I can never truely trust him. I wish I would have made a different decision when choosing my partner. Unfortunately, I had a child with him and I am not ready to leave. At this point I am starting to regret this whole thing. He's a liar, a cheat and untrustworthy. I wish his family would have loved him better so that I wouldn't have to pick up and repair all the damages done. I really need to get myself together because with a husband like mine...... he'll find someone new and start all over. Hopefully by then, my shit is together and I wont be so hurt. welp here's to married life.....would not recommend it if you see the good in people instead of what they show you.....

im so sick of people saying its easy to drive and to just "get over it and do it". driving genuinely makes me feel so sickeningly anxious. i dont understand how im just supposed to be okay going 60 mph with other people also going 60 mph in a 2 ton death i want to walk everywhere

For the record- Since the guilty will try to condemn me either way, I am so sincerely and deeply not sorry. You earned what I do to you. Make an example of me as many times as you'd like but I have been the martyr and I will probably be the martyr again.

he wanna lick my bomboclat my ratatatata

What's the point of making so many friends, just to only be consider the 'side friend' whenever their main isn't with them? Which is something that's been happening with me, yet with nearly all my main friends who've I've ever known since 7th grade as I feel like they are just slowly ignoring me and even not listening to me. Since now the so called 'trio' is just turning into a 'duo' while I just go solo like I expected to be. Even after I showed them my love with so many things, and now im just nothing to anyone or even myself.... I just hate the idea of being ignored and left alone, even whenever i really need someone to be there for me, yet nobody ever does! Yet, I got to be there for that friend who ignores me 24/7? And if I don't then I'm considered fake?? Why is this even happening to me and only me whenever life is shit already

the one person i can rely on betrayed me

Dev Deeh This sounds good imo

What he yappin about? What that mean buddy

I am just a part of the world and I am connected to what is real and powerful. Resources and techniques are real and powerful so sometimes people fear me. The world is greater than me and so I try to respect the world for what it really is. Some people have their imaginary friend they call god and they fear the world because they know the world is greater than their imagery friend that they link to their bloated, sick, emotional, egos. Sometimes I wonder if I should pity you but then I remember your sicknesses that you call evangelical christianity, hinduism, islam, and zionism are the sicknesses you chose to put out into the world to try to corrupt the world. I don't pity you because you made the wrong choices in your wrong religions & nationalistic political lies.

i’ll be 20 in 3 months. my mom died unexpectedly when i was 18 from stage 4 breast cancer. been doing online school for 4 going on 5 years now. recovering from a major reconstructive surgery i had 3 months ago due to chronic foot pain (deformed bone structure). overweight my entire life. got one friend. isolation. no purpose. no drive. no motivation. what do i do with my life.

Trying to mock me does not change the truth. I read scripture. I have never been offered or prescribed psychological medications from doctors. The only "meds" I take are ones thay help my body heal when I am physically wounded. Beyond that- trying to mock the mentally ill says more about the vapid cruelty of the bully than it does about a mentally ill person who needs help or care of some kind.

I’m a virgin and I do not know how to do it

yep the christian bible was written by humans who said they had contact with the false christian god. It's not the christian god because the christian does not exist. I understand christianity perfectly. Much better than christians do. I've read the entire bible and I know the context. I know the history of christianity and I know that followers of christ are liars in the service of pure evil

My attention span is so bad and my mom hates me