All Rants

I hate how my mom constantly tries to embarrass me

Karo na seggs uske saathkaro karo jaldi karo Love u seggs

I'm not diagnosed but i am almost sure i have depression, though i wouldn't want to self-diagnose, i'm sure i have many symptoms of it. I ended up ghosting my friends because of it because some days i didn't even have energy to answer, i just wanted to stay on my phone and do whatever, i hadn't even had energy to play on my laptop which i specifically use for that purpose. Either way, i miss my friends. I regret ignoring them, they stopped talking to me when i didn't answer... I've wanted to text them again but i feel like i have no right to, i probably hurt or worried them. I don't even know if i'll end up feeling as exhausted as before and ignore them again. I'm so ashamed i just stare at their profiles and end up logging off, i'm sure they'll think i'm just using them if i reach out again. I don't want to tell them i might have depression or have to express these sort of issues.

Me and my boyfriend have been dating for 8 months, he used to care so much more and my emotions genuinely moved him. But now its like im another one of his friends, hes not giving me the love i give to him. And its all because I have these male friends he doesnt trust.. but theyre friends ive had since before we met. But because of them hes getting worse but we are both so deeply attached to each other and we are absolutely unable to let go of each other and im trying my hardest to tell him i care more about him than those friends and hes the only boy in the world i could ever want but he still doesnt trust anythinf I say. Ig it soesnt help hes been screwed over so many times by the ones he loved. Ive tried everything like, encouraging him to get female friends of his own, spending way more time with him than with my friends, reminding him how hes my boyfriend and theyre just friends, giving him all the affection he wants, but i guess i cant do much because we are behind screens.

My partner is a wonderful person, so wonderful that they're won over all my friends and family But now, if I have a problem with my partner, it feels like I have no one left to talk to. Not my siblings or my best friends It's just for me

the more i look at the news, the more i hate the world we're living in. people starving and dying in wars they never asked for, gouvernements more corrupted than broken computers, earth's condition. i mean who wants to grow up and who wants their kids to grow up in such conditions? earth has sent more than enough warnings yet nothing major has been done. i know there are people doing something, i know there are people donating but it's so hard to keep on believing we can make this world a better place when such disgusting persons are elected presidents or when you hear the horrid things some kids say. is money really that worth it? a scared teenager.

Is it stupid to wish of death and yet hope to find love at the same time? Polar opposite feelings. Both I yearn to come soon.

this year has been sucking a lot I don’t know I just hate it i have barely been happy and i feel like i have no friends and like two i consider my friends idk like they just use me as a backup for hangouts and everything i just dont like it and i havent hung out with anyone since like two weeks ago i just dont feel loved or cared for and i feel depressed

How are you finding happiness in this world? How do see what is happening right before our eyes and find any amount of joy? I feel nothing but hate and anger anymore. Its actually annoying to have anyone try to "comfort me" because it's truly hopeless. I get actually upset with people who are important in my life just for trying because why the fuck try? Honestly? How do you scrounge up the little bits of "happy" next to your mountain of awful shit and go "yes, this is good." Nah. it's not good. It could never, will never be good.

im so fucking tired. all my friends are finding love and having people ask for their numbers and everything and I just wish it could be me. I want someone to love me for me. not for my body or to just have someone. I always have to stand to the side while people come up to my friends saying "hey my friend wants your number" ect ect. but when is it my turn? when will someone look at me that way, make a move and then stay because they genuinely love everything about me. not just my looks or my body parts. they always leave when they see my personality. am I really unlovable? I try explaining this to my friends and all I hear is "noo you are so pretty youll find someone" but is that all I am? sure, I get compliments on my looks and stuff, but when was the last time someone said they enjoyed being around me? that they love having me as a friend? I dont remember. im so tired of living. im tired of being me. I wish I was anyone else. someone get me out of here.

Mahadev TV series holds a special place in my heart as it brings back some of the best memories I shared with my grandmother. Back when I was 14, I rarely showed any interest in religious TV series as I found them to be boring and cliché. But that changed the moment I watched the first episode. The dramatic soundtracks, the atmosphere and the raw emotions in the TV series made me completely HOOKED! I watched it religiously every day after school particularly Sati’s arc which hit me the most 😭🤌

i feel fucking stupid not because i am incapable but because i always get back to the same thing i swore wouldn't do, and even now i have two tests tomorrow i should study for but i am blasting music through my earphones, i feel like a stupid stupid shit, i feel like i am unworthy of the things i have but i still cover it up bcus ppl are not obliged to listen to it and i also have lab report to write and i was acting like i was mad on friday bcus i was not able to finish it but i am just startin to write it now and i feel so fake and i have to prepare a project idea for tmr but my teammate did it and i didn't even know it was for tmr, but she did and she did it, and i know i am doing this willingly but it feels like i am also tied, well also feels lik i tied myself, i fake authenticity, and run after anything i (i rlly am not sure if it's me or the notices i took from situations, voicing themselves) deem niche which i feel like is so boring and rlly scary gfor me

im so dissatisfied with you. im so unhappy

I'm filled with nothing but anger. I want nothing more than to hurt my family in some unimaginable way. Everything was my fault. I just had it so good my siblings needed to do everything in their power to tear me down limb from limb. They get older and look for support. Tell me about their traumas, then quickly want to look away from mine. I'm always a reminder of their sacrifices, like I owed them my self esteem in return. I don't think they would ever want to know, I don't think I can tell them anything genuine. It would mean anything they apparently did was for nothing. It meanshey deserve every ounce of self hate they give themselves. So I need to carry it alone. Otherwise when they tell me they love me it's hollow. All they did was abandon me. Scream at me about their shit being in the wrong spot while I'm internally rotting in a relationship with an older man at 16. Looking for validation I never recieved. Why does the idea of hurting them make me want to die somewhere awful.

How do I tell my mom my anxiety is getting worst?? She doesn’t even listen to me. Someone help me

I don’t know what I have to do to be a “Good Christian” I feel like their is so much rules. Like don’t gossip, and dress modestly (like what does that mean where do I draw the line? and why can’t I just wear whatever? I mean ofc I have common sense but still) and also rules like don’t curse, don’t get drunk, and read ur bible daily, and pray a lot, and listen to good Christan music and not curse word music, and don’t be mean, and always be super patient, and worry about others before yourself, and love yourself but also don’t love yourself too much bc then u are being prideful. Like idk how much of the bible a day is good bc i used to be super good about reading my bible and i read a lot of it daily. But the last two months i have been only reading the daily bible verses which sometimes I forget to do. And sometimes I am randomly hunger for gods word or worship music. But sometimes I want to distance my self from god.Or i believe I can handle life on my own. But I still go backto god

sighhhh laptop needs a new hard drive…

Hey guys... It's been 3 weeks since I told my crush/friend that I like him. He never responded... I'd rather he reject me than not respond. I hate that I had confidence that you wouldn't be a total coward and a prick and not respond, thanks a lot asshole, I have lost all feelings for you. I hope you have a great life, S. And fuck you too the person who convinced me to confess. Fuck everyone ESPECIALLY YOU! As for anyone reading, I hope you have a great life.

So idk how to start this bc I never really talk about my problems with anyone. Btw tw starving! I'm really trying to lose weight, and rn I'm like starving myself since 2 days I feel hungry but also I know if I eat now I feel guilty about eating something. I wouldn't say I have ed bc idk I'm just trying to lose weight and I tried everything fr everything. Nothing helps. I wanna know how can I eat something without feeling guilty? (And I don't wanna hear something about like "2 days ain't much" I AINT TRYING TO WIN A COMPETITION OR SUM HERE :,D ) Thank you for reading (And also sorry for my bad english)

I have a genuine questionnnn sooooo I just started my first week of high school and I already am procrastinating homework. How can I make sure this doesn’t continue. Bc it’s gets so stressful when I do this. And it is really annoying. And sometimes it’s not just procasinating but attually just not doing it and bringing my grade down or leading to me failing a test bc I did not study or do homework. Or the homework I did do I cheated on and used ai…… 😬 Btw I think I have adhd even tho I have not been diagnosed bc I don’t want to be put on any meds. But yeah and ofc I know litteraly EVERYONE thinks they have adhd so yeah.