All Rants

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Is it ok to dream about being a mother and a wife, dreaming a live away from my toxic home? Or am I wasting time

The urge is killing me 😂 I cant fucking handle it anymore 😂😂😂 Fuck my life 😂

There is only one person in this world who I feel can truly understand what is going on in my mind right now, but I physically can not bring myself to reach out to her. She was my friend of 7 years, and despite betraying my trust and using me for my selflessness one too many times, I still feel like it was my fault. I have other people to talk to but it doesn’t feel the same. They are friends with each other. I’m just the older coworker who happens to listen to the same music. I still talk to someone from high school occasionally, but he has his own life. I can’t open up to him like I did with her because he genuinely would not understand any of it. He doesn’t know what I have done, or what I have gone through in the last 7 years. She did.

I want to self harm so bad, and I want it to scar but at the same time im terried to go deeper then just cat scratches. Im wondering if I cut everyday, will it scar even if its deep? Google won't answer me and im so scared to ask others for help so idk what to do. I want to try relapsing everyday but its summer, I dont want peope to notice but at the same time I do? Im so confused. Im not even sure if I want the scars anymore im now just wondering if its just me having a very bad urge to cut. I dont even have any reason to self harm right now, the urge is just so hard for me to deal with right now.

Just a closer still stuck in school while everyone is above with sick older parents that don't deserve a deadbeat child and a falling passion in everything, nothing gives me joy anymore, and if it does its rather unhealthy or limited, a failing relationship with spirituality too

is it weird that my dad works 10h/week and gets summers off while my mom works 40-60 hours and just sits around all day watching the news? he's always buying get rich courses and weird health crap but only eats frozen meals and probably only goes for a walk once a month, otherwise he literally just sleeps, is on the computer, or running errands. oh and he leases a new car every 3-4 years and had the audacity to ask my mom to move into a nicer house across the city lmao. no way this is real

I hate teaching in this school. The students talk too much and I don't feel respected as their teacher. I regretted choosing this school.

I need to rant. I’m the oldest daughter, forced to be perfect while my troublesome 6-year-old brother gets all the attention and spends money daily. High school starts soon; sports are everything here. I used to do competitive artistic swimming but quit after team drama. Lately, I wanted to join the high school swim team with an old teammate. My dad supported it until seeing the schedule; he refused to commit, calling it a waste of time, though my brother’s schedule is way more chaotic. My mom ignores and forgets me, refusing mother-daughter bonding while doing it all with him. They scold me for buying things and call sports a distraction, even though I'm an athlete. I must act like the perfect kid but I feel like I'll never be enough. They want me in rec sports, not competitive, which isn't what I want. They don't understand my effort, say I don't try, and loudly find fault instead of praising me. I've never heard "I'm proud of you" ONCE. I feel like I'm not enough and never will be.

I just want to be wanted sexually

When I’m gone that’s when everyone will start to care.

I hate having ADHD so much. It’s taking over my life and I always feel like i’m annoying people. it feels as if everyone just hates me. I only try to be kind to people. I wish I was normal. to get along with people. make friends easier. I feel like an alien in my own skin.

My dad makes me have bad thoughts hes so mean To me and my mother.

goddamn grandma sybau you do not need to publicize everything holy shit also stop being racist

Everything’s moving so fast I genuinely can’t take it anymore. When I first met my friend last year we clicked immediately and I literally thought that that was my person yk, like the person you go to for everything. Well on the surface I thought that but truly I knew she wasn’t. I didn’t like the way she treated people when I was with her. She shut all her friends out to be my friend. Well now I’m that friend she shuts out. We were close now we’re not. It all happened in ONE DAY not a month not even a year just a day. She’s like oh I hope this trio works and oh we’re gonna be friends forever, like no the fuck we aren’t. If u keep doing this over and over to people soon enough you’re gonna have no body to do this with. AND on top of that my parents are the kind that don’t believe in divorce. Wdym you don’t believe in divorce?! Clearly you guys need it but you’re just not taking the step to do it! Idk I’m js not liking things right not and I js wish it would stop.

Screw you You are an overgrown childish asshole who is a big bully you and your daughter deserve eachother you and your best friend deserve eachother I did nothing to deserve that FUCK YOU STUPID BITCH you have anger issues you suck ass you are a horrible person a horrible parent an emotionally unintelligent immature grownchild I hope something comes along and smacks you in the face to wake you tf up TRULY I do because if not you are going to lose everything and it would have been your fault.

I kinda have to say I'm okay or else you're gonna call me sensitive or dramatic again huh

Why are they doing this? Well, here we go again. I'm shutting people out

Sometimes I worry I look like a man

If I killed myself right now my mom would probably be more worried about the fact that I didn’t clean my room first