On paper we’re all good. Married. And everyone see’s him as a good guy. He is! But just not good to me. His stress level and his job determine how he treats me. He’s short and snappy and rude and shows his annoyance with his facial expressions. I wish I could say he says nice things to me at the very least, but he doesn’t. I have to ask for the nice and communicate my needs. And even then, I don’t get it. But he’s quick to say that he will do fine, he brings a lot to the table and I don’t. I wish he could just have gratitude that I show so much grace and kindness towards him even though he doesn’t towards me. He’s selfish and only cares for me if he has the capacity or patience. I cry everyday. I’m tired. This cycle is so harmful for me. And I have no one to talk to (other than my therapist once a week)