I'm just tired, everyday there's a new issue that I'm not let in on. Everytime he drinks or takes drugs there's a new lie or some BS he makes up or Carey's on with to make himself the victim. Everyday there's a comment , everyday there's a fkn problem even if there actually isn't. 3 years of this man cheating , sneaking around , lying , abusing , just fkn everything and even still ... Somehow ...some fkn how I'm always to blame. Ofc he denies it later , makes me out as insane or a liar. I don't know what to do , I'm just so tired

I love you and I miss you, but I don't want you back. You hurt me in myriad of ways where my intention was to just love you! You didn't love me, you just loved how I made you feel! You loved the attention, not me! You disrespected always! You didn't want me to leave because I was so easy access to you. You used me. And now you miss me? Wouldn't have happened if you treated me right yeah??? I still love you and wish you happiness god i fucking love you much come back to me

I feel like they all hate me. They all blame me for it all. It's 3 against 1, they must be right. Something i'm not seeing. i don't want them to be right. Why can't he see he projects hatred!? That he claims to read body language but won't ignore it when i tell him otherwise. He takes everything I say and turn it into something vile "You hate me" "you don't want me as your father" "most insulting thing you can say to a parent" I try to keep my tone calm but I rarely ever can. They all cut me off and demand I stop talking. "You never know when to shut up" Why should i stand by and ignore the hatred, the mischaracterisation, sexism, misinterpretation of so much of what i say? 3 women in the car tell the man double shampooing has been a thing for a long time, he says 15-20 years isn't long enough. I search it up and bring up how it was started in the 1970's with an ad to convince people to double shampoo. He always denies. Everything is new when it isn't from his childhood/experience.