Anonymous
I wish I could see him. I messed up. we went to a dance and I was convinced he was going to break up with me. so I ran. and cried. I hid like a child. He started overthinking. He said if he stopped faking his happiness he would get questions and be told he's annoying. I need to talk to him. but I'm scared to make it worse. Im scared to sit down with him and tell him why I ran. I'm scared to ask him if I'm the reason he wont open up, because what if I am? His friend yelled at him to kiss me and scared him. my best friend forced him to dance with me. Im the problem. Im failing as a partner and Im an idiot. but I'm in love. I love him and I cant lose him. Im obsessed. Im obsessed and I cant do anything about it. I need and crave communication but I messed up so so SO SO BAD. I'm crying. Im in so much pain I swear I might be dying inside. but he's still here. he didn't leave. he still said he loved me before he left. I cant give up. but HOW do I tell him that without breaking down?