i just feel so fucking lonely all the time. my friends don't hate me but they don't care outside of school, 90% of the social interaction i have in a day are sending tiktoks back and forth or talking about schoolwork and when i don't text anyone on my main channel of communication its completely empty. i'm so stressed about the things i need to do but i go home and i procrastinate and i don't have the motivation to touch them until its almost too late. all i do is get home, eat, sleep, and scroll or do some other stupid friendless activity. i don't want to be the loser whose only focus in life is school and ends up graduating highschool in honors with no close friends. my best friend has another best friend and nobody cares enough to be happy but they care too much for me to die. every time i think about telling any one of my friends i think about how little they care and how itll hurt our relationship, and my heart starts pounding and my chest gets tight. bye