I'm scared to go to school after a long holiday, but idk why this happens to me. I think I'm gradually forgetting my childhood (even when I try to remember it, I can't tell if it's real or just a dream), along with some of my jhs experiences. I can barely remember anything from primary school. Somehow, when I was in 11th grade, I either couldn't or refused to recall most of my memories from 10th grade. Now, I'm starting to forget things from 11th grade too. It feels like things got worse when I entered high school, especially during 10th grade. Maybe something happened back then, but I didn't realize how serious it was. Lately, this has been bothering me a lot. For example, when I try to remember my childhood, I can’t clearly tell what’s real and what’s not, and it gives me an unsettling feeling that sometimes scares me. It’s starting to affect my daily life, and I don’t really know how to handle it. Idk whether i should see a psychiatrist, a psychologist, or just leave it as it is.