my mother ask if im fine i say yes no im not i wanna die but i can't tell her that i cant tell her the baby girl she gave birth to wants to take her own life even if i did she would not understand to would send me to a hospital she says a person can't even choke their own self but she does not know that was me a few days ago im useless compared to me pretty perfect little sister always smiling laughing good grades lots of friends why am i even here i ask my self crying in my bed all alone my father hates me i thinks its because im just scum next to her my dark hair eyebags sucks at sports dumb now what do i die do i focuses on school and even worse i made myself look like the one always laughing so when im sad its just a prank or im fine but im was fucking crying on my bathroom floor with a pill bottle in my hand why me why this pain what did i do i hate everyone and everything