I hate myself. I genuinely don't know what's wrong with me. I'm privileged enough to have nice things, to have a family, and to have people who support me. Yet, sometimes I feel like I just want to stop living. Sometimes I feel like punishing myself because I couldn't get this score or I couldn't make myself study. I feel the need to harm myself because I deserve it. I'm in this class that is kinda considered the honors class, and I feel like i'm so left behind. Do I even belong here?? I feel so shit.. i feel disgusting.. I feel ugly... It's even worse when I feel envious for my friends getting a love life when I have better things to worry but I can't stop feeling it. I can't stop being a sensitive bitch I can't stop crying over little things and my mom says to control it but I can't and then I end up crying more how do I even stop this????? I think im getting better but today it felt worse and I wanted to let it out