Hey Mattias, the 30 year old from Spain who I chatted with last night. I was really hoping you'd message me on IG. Idk, something about you said that you think "this is it," it's destiny of ours, kinda stuck with me. And that you couldn't get me out of my mind, I couldn't get you out of mine either. I know, it's pretty much wishful thinking too, but it's weird how I've been thinking about you almost the whole day. That you might message me at 2PM when you wake up, or at 12am when your day wraps up, or maybe later at 2-3am during the time I met you first. Oh, well. I guess the universe really is telling me to remain single for now. Or maybe I'm just trying to force a connection because you said there is for you.

my parents have said so many times on how I dissappoint them but they have never said that they were proud of me.

I want to cry so badly and feel but it just won't happen. I just feel sadness inside me everyday and just finally want to show my true feelings but I can't, I just feel so numb