I feel so depressed recently, I just hate my life so much. I've already written down how to su1c1d3 and who I should say goodbye to if such people would even care. I can even properly take care of myself well enough. My own mother doesn't even care, and ive been choking with my throat, and my father says its just normal Im loosing my friends all of them slowly departing I have thought of running away multiple times before but they wouldnt work because the police would just find me I just want to disappear forever apparently my mother guilt trips me when I try to go to my dads place on her week because I can be more alone then hes never home until 8 o clock at night so it would be a great time to be alone and for people to forget about me i cant do this anymore..