Well, First off. Work is frustrating. If you ever work for a company that has blind spots in its policies. Question the hell out of them. I just don't get it. My Job is built on Economics to the extreme, where it is blind. No one is going to know its blind spots. Very Smart though because it makes you use your brain, but... WTF..... It is kind of scary. This company is a huge company, and they have guidelines where they are not responsible or held accountable for anything that is pretty scary. If you know, then you know what business I am talking about. I am sorry. This could possibly be a couple of big corporations that are made like this. It's crazy out there. Business owners are getting smarter. Do we want this for our future? Where corruption and manipulation can easily be done!!!

Hey Mattias, the 30 year old from Spain who I chatted with last night. I was really hoping you'd message me on IG. Idk, something about you said that you think "this is it," it's destiny of ours, kinda stuck with me. And that you couldn't get me out of my mind, I couldn't get you out of mine either. I know, it's pretty much wishful thinking too, but it's weird how I've been thinking about you almost the whole day. That you might message me at 2PM when you wake up, or at 12am when your day wraps up, or maybe later at 2-3am during the time I met you first. Oh, well. I guess the universe really is telling me to remain single for now. Or maybe I'm just trying to force a connection because you said there is for you.

I want to cry so badly and feel but it just won't happen. I just feel sadness inside me everyday and just finally want to show my true feelings but I can't, I just feel so numb