I genuinely do not know how I could've supported you out of pity for everything you had done to me mom, it's been two years already and even if I know you're still alive lurking somewhere I'm still fucking scared if you suddenly came back. The gnawing hypocrisy lying within you trying to protect me from others when you ended up abusing me? Touching me? Sexualizing me and near off trying to fucking sell me. I feel completely drained now. You've used me and I barely reached my twenties. Why am I not mad and sad enough for what you have done to me? Why do you disgust me so much? Why did you had to disguise yourself as the victim and make me feel bad? I feel dirty soo dirty. I can't stand to look at you anymore. Court day is soon and you'll yet try to play as the victim without even seeing what you have done. I'll never know what it will feel like to have a loving mother. My kids will probably never have a loving Grandma. You fucked up. "Mom."

ive been crushing on my best friend and i told them about 5 months ago and everything was fine and nothing changed. but more recently theyve been expressing the fact that they want to be in a relationship and it makes me feel a bit jealous. they also think that i dont want to date them because im aroace. im pretty sure they dont like me like that, but havent confirmed or denied because they havent reciprocated but havent rejected me either. and a few nights ago i had a dream where they laid on my shoulder and told me to do anything i wanted and i gave them a tight hug and expressed my feelings for them again and they accepted, and i wish it was real, and the day after i told a friend that i was gay in joking manner and he said he already knew and assumed that me and my best friend were dating, and i told him he doesnt like me like that and when i said it, it kinda broke my heart. idk what to do now, i kinda just want advice

Hi I don’t know if this is gonna sound silly I’m just trying to get it all out so basically I’m homeschooled and I feel like I’m failing my mom because I struggle to get out of bed and get motivated and my mom says I need therapy but I hate the idea of going therapy and I feel like I’m hurting her bc she thinks she’s destroyed my life but she hasn’t it’s me and recently I met this guy I loved and we started dating me and him clicked straight away we talked and talked but he was long distance and I met him online but me and him FaceTimed all the time but my mom wasn’t convinced he was telling the truth of his age so she made me ask him to show his passport and FaceTime so my family can look and talk to him this guy also had mad anxiety like me but if I didn’t ask my mom was go crazy at me and obviously the guy said he need time to think so I have him 3 days and then asked if he was ok and are we good and he blocked me without a word or goodbye just blocked on everything