i have this insane unbearable crush on this girl, limerence we could call it. shes not even perfect, shes just normal just fine just shes better than me. atleast thats the conclusion ive come to. fuck. she is not even like idk super attractive conventionally? but i havent been able to get her fully out of my mind in fucking years. YEARS. ive been trapped in the prision my mind has made and i cant escape. i think of her at night, i think of her skin, her body, her abs, i think of what her lips would feel like, but i know she would never choose me, all i can have are hopes and fabrications, manipulations of memories. idk. maybe she could like me, but idk, she have never choosen me, even tho i guess i dont show it shes kinda perfect for me in the way that i cant feel icked out by anything she does, shes hurt me in more ways than you culd imagine, basically fucked my friend, talked shit about me, and if anyone else did this i could cut them off immeadiately, but with her, for some PT1