i am an asshole. last year i was cheated on and i think i had a ton of growing resentment so we broke up and i met another guy then resumed seeing the guy who cheated on me and ended things with new guy. i went back to school and cheated on my current bf with the guy i met earlier last year. my friends found out and dropped me and i moved out the room. the guy from before is on a sport team and his teammates and their friends found out and now i have the worst reputation in the world. my current bf does not know at all. i hate myself i will never forgive myself and i wish none of this happened. i am in a very bad place and i do not know why i did it. my life is ruined.