i dont really care if they leave me or not because if they do then they will be happy and it probably wasnt meant to be if they think and act on it in the first place but i crave intimacy but im not actually gonna go for it im never gonna outwardly say i love you eww that means nothing and its awkward and cringe but atthe same time the thought is lovely i guess i want to be hugged but the feeling is disgusting eww ummm they deserve freedom they dont need meit hurts but it fades quickly because if they leave me then we're both happy. relationships are reciprocal and if one person doesnt feel happy its not going to work so itwas never meant to be. one day someone will be happy with me and thats the one that i might stay with. of course it will take time but thats for everything haha ummm thats never gonna happen tbh low chance i dont offer much actually but i expect so much i dont deserve anyone