I am so burnt out with everything. Im tired of having mental health problems, i hate being 18, i hate having no friends and such a boring life, i hate not having a boyfriend. Everything is just a mess. What the hell have i done to deserve a life like this? Im a good affectionate girl but it seems no boy wants my love they want to make it all about sex why? why would you rather just use someone than be happy and giggly over someone? i remember my first big crush, I just had a big crush on him and i was so happy even when he just smiled at me, he ended up not feeling the same, it still impacts me. Im over him. There is this other boy im really into, hes all ive ever wanted, i just want to be with him, Gid i promise i will be so good to him. I might as well km3 because i feel like im not good enough or wanted in this life. If i end it people can say they missed out on a good girl, i guess once im dead boys will say "wow she was an affectionate girl in a world full of users but she gone