I love reading fanfiction. It's practically the only thing keeping me going at this point. Toxic ships are one of my guilty pleasures: not because I'd actually like it to happen in canon, but because I love examining the character dynamics in that kind of relationship. There's one thing I hate reading about OR watching - embarrassment. I don't know why, but I can't stand to see it happen, whether in a book or a show. I just stop watching/reading, not wanting to go on. Maybe I'm traumatised in some way, because this DEFINITELY goes beyond the realm of second hand embarrassment. It's a visceral feeling, deep in my soul. It's like I'm watching someone about to fall off the edge of a cliff. I can read about someone dying, or in a horrible situation, but embarrassment? Nah.