I'm not even fucking 15 yet and I've already become addicted to porn and weed. None of my friends ever talk to me anymore and the only ones who do are fucking jerks. I know it's selfish but I wish I could get what I want for once. I'm obviously the least favorite child, and if I told my parents I'm trans they would try to fucking exorcise me. I really wanna fucking kill myself. Nothing is easy. I'm too much of a fucking idiot to even do my schoolwork properly. I'm so fucking depressed but my mom doesn't believe in depression. She wanted to put me in therapy because of trauma but we can't fucking afford it. Our house is falling apart and we have not only a cockroach infestation, but a german roach infestation too. We have mold in the pantry too. istg I just wanna die. My best friend who I'm IN LOVE WITH is dating a shitty 19 year old who makes rape jokes about kids and animals, and I can't even stop her. We're so broke that I havent even been able to celebrate my birthday since I was 12