Back to mental heath and not knowing what to do, my panic attacks kinda suck. I go from barely functioning but perfectly fine on the outside, to a nonspeaking, almost deaf, hyperventilating, and barely could see anything person in the span of a couple minutes, and stay for at least an hour. I know I should tell my mom abt this, & ik it hurts her so much when she finds out her daughter had one, her mood changes, appetite is gone, probably feels just as bad as me if not worse cause she doesn't know how to help in a way I'm comfortable with. Cause how tf are you supposed to comfort someone who can't really speak, or hear unless it's loud (like yelling loud, which does not help in a panic attack for me), or not really see, and doesn't like unexpected touch, or touch in general most of the time? I just blast music and hope for the best. She doesn't even know why I have them, cause my dad's side of the family even if we aren't involved anymore. And I hate that I still let them affect me