I honestly don't know what to do abt my mental heath. Depression episodes lately, panic attacks every night before bed, have trouble going and staying asleep for a buncha reasons, panic attacks when I wake up for god knows what, social anxiety for no apparent reason. I don't wanna talk abt it cause my mom is the only one with a paycheck in a family of 5, but also schoolwork she needs to focus on, has my cousin to keep on track, she can't have another problem she feels the need to help, even if I'm her only child. I can't do that to her, did that twice, regretted it the day after. I'd rather suffer in silence till who knows how long until I try another attempt than drag her down with me in mental health. Ik I'm supposed to tell her these sorta things, particularly panic attacks she said, cause for me they last an hour at least, my hearing goes from ok to feels like I'm underwater, can't really see shit, can't even talk, hyperventilating. She doesn't even know the triggers when I do