Second rant abt depression, I have stuff to do, stuff I want to do, stuff that's basically my version of therapy and self care, but I can't even start a project of any kind, I'm doing this crochet along, 2 outa 15 done, they're small too, they should be easy to get done for me, I have personal writing projects that I have a bunch of ideas for, things that actually made me happy just thinking about it, yet I've only done two chapters and don't even know how to start the third. Like I know what I want to happen, I can't type it out in a way I like, I don't like the chapters I've wrote now since I reread it, but I'm just gonna leave it up since it's at least some progress over last year. I'm behind in school too, since I'm home schooled cause of mental heath, I really only have myself to monitor how much I get done, and I've been slacking a lot recently, so trying to find a balance w/o burning out or relapsing, never drawn blood but I've been clean for a week and wanna keep going