I don't know, everything just feels so plain and like nothing. Work is meh, the daily routine with toddler feels like a secondary work. Married life has stagnated after 10 years, there's not much closeness, laughing and goofying around together anymore. There are no other plans than work, try to get more money, buy a bigger apartment, watch the kid grow old, and what then? Is there anything else to life than just flowing through it and then be done with it. Why are we here, what are we supposed to do? What should I do to actually feel happy about life and enjoy it?