I dont know what is wrong with me. Since i was 10, ive been struggling with self harm; it was a way to cope whenever i felt upset or overwhelmed. Im not sure where i even got the idea of hurting myself, since back then i had little to no access to the internet. Im not sure where i got the thought from. Back then i had no one to talk to and struggled a lot with making friends amd that type of stuff. 4 years later, aka now i feel way worse,,, i think this is the worst ive EVER felt. I just want to die. I dont see myself making it to 18 or working or having fun. I just want to die. My self harm is worse, my mom knows and doesnt care she doesnt even try to talk to me about it, shes pnly worried about how to get rid of the ugly scars. Im the laziest person ever,, i never feel like dling anytjing,, i suddenly feel like bursting out crying and thrn hurt myself for absolutely no reason. My life is good, so why am i so ungrateful and ready to die??? sorry idk what to do about it