I'm ruining my relationship with my family and my only friend bc of my issues. I dont even if it's depression or wht,and i feel so suicidal it's really bad.like my parent are never rlly at home bc of their job and i js sit in my room and js sleep or watch stuff,since my parents arent really home i have to take care fo my brother and do chores with my sis and i cant even clean or take care of my brother like playing with him bc i feel so deppresed and i think my sister is having teh same problems. My parents aren't forcing me, but doing these things is something I have to do bc there is no one else who can, and ik that, but I wish it wasn't this way. I feel so guilty for not at least keeping the house clean, and ik my parents are tired and want to come home to a clean house, but I'm trying my best. I feel so guilty yelling at my brother all the time ik hes only 4, but I feel so depressed and hopeless i want/cant even speak sometimes.