I just threw out the love of my dreams. 3 years of relationship, for me to just end like that haha I'm an absolute idiot. She loved me for who I truly am, however I can never reciprocate the same for her. I've did more bad to her than anything. Yet she loved me. Saw me for who I am, yet she loved me. Who am I to receive that kind of love? I am not worthy of such. I did more bad to her and never gave any sorry, yet this time, this time I can't forgive myself for it. She truly is one of a kind, a beautiful world that gives harvest despite of labor. I don't deserve her, I don't even have the right to say that I love her but my heart aches now that she's gone. Truly I am a horrible person. A horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible performative loser....-