I volunteer in a gallery once a week but it's so incredibly boring and I genuinely hate it. I'm just so depressed and anxious about everything else that I can't enjoy things anymore. I don't want to get experience, I don't want to graduate, I don't want to get a job. I just want to die or be invisible. All I can think about is being alone in my room because I hate the fake, happy person I have to be here. None of my friends want to hear me talk, I have nobody to genuinely talk to about he way I feel. I'm so unbelievably lonely. It's not like I need more friends because even in a crowd of people I feel alone. I just want to be fixed. I have nothing to be sad about. I'm just an ugly depressed chud who has no life and no money. It's humiliating.