I feel like I don't need help mainly because I'm pretty self aware of how I act isn't normal, but since I'm aware it isn't, I feel like I'm not that mentally bad as other people. I see others do thing they don't want to because they aren't aware it's bad, but I am. So I feel like everything I do, like self harming, is on purpose and not because my health is bad. I don't really know how to explain it but it's like I know what I'm doing and I could stop at anytime, but others feel like they can't like they mentally can't. But I can. My life isn't as bad as others so I really have no reason to do this stuff, so basically in simpler terms, I feel like I'm a larper. I can hurt myself and realize it isn't gonna help but yet I do it just 'cause I don't wanna half ass it. My mind is very weird.