Hi, I am going insane. I am starting to hate everyone around me and my motivation is at an all time low. I just cant stand doing anything because to me the world has already decided that I will be nobody in this life. Everything i try fails miserably doesnt matter how hard I can possibly try and I feel completely worthless. I throw my anger out to my love ones, insulting them everyday and even insulting random people and feeling joy in making them cry because in my mind they can finally understand my pain and that makes me feel understood. I love when people cry because of me. I dont want words of reassurance i just wanted ways to vent out wtf i got inside of me and this site was the first thing that chatgpt told me to fucking visit. I am at a rock bottom of my life and i think j am gonna kill myself.