so im failing physics for the first time, and i feel so alone. Everyone is telling me its okay but i dont know if it is. I feel so done with everyone, and i wanna just graduate. I know life gets better but idk if i can do this anymore. Ive never been a person to "just pass" and i lie and say i dont care but it hurts to not go to a school that used to be my dream. I want to be a writer, I cant do that. I want to do something with my life that id be proud of as a kid, but i cant. I just want to be happy, for a second. I don't want to doubt. And i want to ask a girl out to prom, but im so scared of a no that i just cant do it. I've been hurt so many times but i dont want to be alone. But we graduate and go to different schools in a few months. How do I do that? Is it worth it? will she think it is. I want to be a teen forever but i also dont. I want those movie scenes. I want to believe in myself but I cant. I feel like a failure who cant even do the one thing she wants. I'm just tired :(

In a room filled with dumb people I am the smart one but in a room filled with smart people I’m the dumb one

I hate my family who never teach me to live properly. One of them scolded me for my imature personality even when I was a literal kid then.