i attempted by my pets sciccsors i have adhd and im going to give hkdse in 7 dys i have no complete prep no will no expectation. and i just got told of my mom that my dad destroyed our life now left me with his brain so i can ruin it more. she said im turning wirthless cuz i dont study i know that i am stressing her out burdening her. she git to this point after i annoyed her too much but i forgot person has limits she dossent understand adhd depresssion or anxiety i think its better to overdose on my meds and eliminate her stress i just hope no one remembers me but before i pass away my cat knows im dead

I honestly don't know where to begin. Maybe where my dad has to be assigned somewhere far again inducing additional costs in the household expenses and having no one to take me to school. In theory I am okay with taking the public transport to go and leave school but unfortunately I don't have the best experiences, I can recount about a number of memories being harassed by creeps n it's giving me such a fear. My dad is worried my mom is trying to calm him down and I'm trying to offer them both peace. I read Deuteronomy saying God has alrdy arrived in the tomorrow we si worry about hence we need to put more faith in him knowing he'll never let us go thru anything on our own. I know God will always be by my side. And me ranting don't mean I don't rust his plans it's just that I don't rlly know where I shld pour these feelings without burdening those I love n the worries of being misunderstood and labelled thinking too much. Things happening altogether, I hope God sustains us all the way.

I'm completely exhausted by life. No matter how I try, I keep failing. There's always more to do, and no matter how hard I try to fix things, even when I seek external feedback and refine my methods, the results always fall short. I am not a good child to my parents. I am not good at helping my brothers either. My health is failing and I am constantly lonely. I wish I could talk to someone in my life about this.