I feel like absolute shit right now . My cat passed away a month ago and I’m still grieving him but I don’t want to complain. My dearest closest friend in this universe just said she might’ve gotten cancer, sarcoma cancer. I genuinely don’t know what to do without her. She always has the answer to all my troubles. If anyone understands me it’s her. I want her to live long enough to see me blossom into the person she helped me become. I want her to meet my future children. I want her here for when I make it. I do not know what I would do without her. She is my lense who helps me see the world clearly. I feel so helpless, I cannot even begin to imagine how helpless she feels. Her life has been nothing but tough, but I truly hope I helped make it a bit better. I will forever be grateful to all she has done for me and I hope she lives on for many more years to come.