I recently got surgery on my back (spinal fusion which makes it impossible for me to bend my back) and since then I guess I've felt sort of depressed, every second hurts. I have to take a bunch of medication that will make the pain subside a bit but these meds have made me feel sick to my stomach whenever I eat, I've thrown up and passed up which both have hurt my back even more. I have also been doing an online college math course over the summer to try to get ahead in math, but at the kind of school I go to, its more like catch up, its a private college prep high school so most people there are smart, and if they aren't smart then they are really good at sports, two things I am not good at. Anyway, the final for the course is coming up and I'm pretty sure I'm going to fail the course. If I do I'll look like an idiot compared to those around me.