Please I'm asking anyone for advice. I have social anxiety and I just want to talk to people. But I'm afraid. I get embarresed that I'll say the wrong thing or do the wrong thing so I just do nothing. I don't want to be alone, I want to be invited to parties and hang out with friends. But every time I try to speak, I can't. I feel a bulge in my throat and my face turns red. I have thought about killing myself sometimes because I'm so done with being left and it's my fault that I am left out. What's the point if I'm alone all the time. But I'm scared to kill myself. I just want friends but I also just want to curl up in a ball and not talk to anyone because of that fear. I don't know what to do, it's my junior year of high school, friend groups are already made and I don't know how to even start a conversation with a person. I just wish I had the courage to do it. Please does anyone have any advice to get over my social anxiety?