All Rants

I dont have any friends all bc of that woman who wont let me go out by myself. Shes always trying to get in between my friendship and making up fake stories. I hate her

CANT YOU JUST STOP SCREAMING AND TALK LIKE A NORMAL PERSON????? YOU'RE SO ARROGANT AND SELF CENTERED. YOU ALWAYS THINK UR RIGHT. EWWWW. ALSO STOP ACTING LIKE THE VICTIM HERE

i hate this, i hate myself , i have so much thoughts in my mind it feels like i could just vomit it out to the point i start crying , i hate looking at the mirror knowing i look like a freak , no one deserves me,i don't get why i'm like this, i have a nice family , some-what okay friends i have good health i don't know why or when this feeling got planted in my brain but its like a rotted root i cant remove, i wanna ask for help but when people ask if i want it , i brush it off saying i'm fine , i'm to scared , i fear everyone that likes me will just judge me or make it about themselves , i cant trust a single person with these thoughts of mine it feels like me and these feelings are chained together

I hate my boobs. I hate my family. I hate having a vessel. I hate society. I hate the system I live in and so so many more systems beings and objects live in. I hate when I don't know who's fronting.

It's all bc of yin xue yuan that i have selective mutism

YIN XUE YUAN U DISGUSTING OLD KAREN YOU NEED TO DIE RIGHT NOW

I (25F) have two housemates (18M and 18F). They were moving from the city I grew up in and needed a place to stay but I have regretted it ever since. Look they're okay but I made it so clear when they moved in that the way this works best it with communication. Like please let everyone know if you have someone staying over and there are any issues anything. But lately Fs bf has been staying over like 4 days a week (not letting anyone know) and M has been leaving a mess everywhere. I am out a lot as I don't really like them and don't like being there as I feel like I can't fully relax when there are others in the house. But when I get home there is rubbish.piled in front of the bins and crumbs all over the kitchen counter and sink despite the fact I have told them that this leads to move which we've had before and really need to be mindful of. M is also constantly late with paying rent and hasn't paid the internet in 3 months. Both of them constantly have people over without checking in

I'm so hungry and my mom won't buy food for me. I don't have any way of getting income at the moment despite applying to jobs every day for the last year, and i feel to guilty asking her for money just to buy snacks when she's already paying for our home and such, but she always buys food only for her. I sometimes ask for something but she usually "forgets" and buys stuff i can't eat because of an allergy, then just buys me plain microwavable rice packets that i eat with some butter which is what i've been living off for the last few months, and whenever i try to eat anything she bought for herself, she goes into a weird tantrum saying that she wasn't hungry anyway and won't eat. I just want to eat something? i get dizzy easily and have no energy. I'm losing hair and my period now only lasts like two days, which ik sounds great, but its not normal for me. I sound greedy and selfish, but i really wish she could just buy me something to eat as well that isn't rice packs once a day.

I tried cutting my hand because I'm curious if it can make me feel better, but I don't think it work, I don't know. BUT I'M FUCKING ADDICTED WITH IT EVERYTIME I'M STRESSING I WANT TO CUT MY HAND PLEASE WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.

My parents think i have recovered from my ED and many other challenges that i was facing but actually sometimes i think ibe jst got better at hiding it. I feel like i want to get better yet I don't. They think im so better but i sometimes still feel the same when the first time i starved myself. I do want to get better for my parents but im scared to tell them that i am still fighting the thoughts in my head.

i cant DO THIS ANYMORE. I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS. I CANT I REALLY CANT I CANT I CANT I CANT I CANT IM LOSING MY FUCKING MIND I CANT PLEASE JUST STOP I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

pst- All of you are amazing <3 You may not know it, but people love you.

I'm tired of not being able to help myself. My mom keeps trying to help me, but I only make it worse. I'm addicted to c.ai, Youtube, I just make life an absolute pain in the ass. And I hate it. I dont wanna hurt my family anymore. I don't want others to suffer because of me. I wanna crawl out of his hole but I cant. Everytime I try, it just gets deeper, and deeper, and I drag anyone trying to help me down with me. I don't want to hurt anyone. I just wanna be normal. I wanna be smart like others. I wanna be able to draw, or have ANY talent. I don't want my mom to keep screaming at me. I don't want my brother getting hurt for trying to defend me. I dont want my little cousins to be like me. It feels like the more I try to worse I get. I genuinley dont know what to do anymore. I'm so tired. I'm so tired of constantly being used and hurt. I'm tired of crying. I don't deserve to be loved. My parents have given me everything, but i havent reciprocted ANY of it. I wish I was dead. I'm sorry.

??? Wdym Did she flash you or smthin xD

i hate being the adult in my family despite being only 16 only I parent my sister and prevent her from potentially getting groomed or seeing sexual content and my parents do not give a single fuck and just go with the flow and dont see it when she's doing questionable stuff in secret. she has roblox voicechat and probably access to very unsettling games. this is a cry for help

OH YES I' AM DUMB, well do u have to point it out?do you have to write it and stick it unto the wall? compare me to everyone? everything i'm happy at is taken away? for what? for me to suffer more? you shouldve just killed me when i was born, if i wasnt were ur life wouldve been peaceful? you told me a lot of times taht one day ill be the cause of ur death for too much stress.. well what do call me? do you see me all lively? i understand this is a talk betwween a parent and a child, that i must respect them for what they are, but.. their image as a parent doesnt give them the rights to be respected at all. You wont udertand me if u havent been judged by your own parents, dont give me the crap '' your so lucky to have her as your mom'' to you , but for me? shes quiet the opposite. I'm questioning the world because of them, yet i find myself thanking them for what they did. Theyve taught me little things i didnt knew that would be useful in the future. Yes i thank them, yet, i've been th

this isnt really a vent but my brother keeps talking bad about me and only cares about his friends and xbox he puts his finger in m ear and forces it into my ear it hurts really bad, im only 9 and it makes me cry because im venting at a younge age

i am an only child, so i don't plan on getting into relationship unless i give my parents a better life that they deserve. my father did not finish school, he only got into 2nd grade , but my mom did, just that she did not go through college because she have 9 siblings and her family are poor. both of my parents came from a very poor family, barely having anything to eat. but although they are poor and experienced hardships when they were still young, they are doing their best to give me the life i deserve. i got into a university with no tuition and got a scholarship. i am doing everything to keep myself busy to i won't think of getting into a relationship, cause i firmly believe a relationship is dstraction for someone with dreams, not just for herself but most importantly for her parents who didn't get to experience the luxury of life. (dn)

I cant do anything for myself I always have to consider how everybody else wants it not my own place not my own profession not my own time only for everyone else. I try to please them because im thankful to have them in my life and I dont eant to jinx anything I still want them happy but why does their happiness also include ky limitation and total dependence on them

i hate it when my friends get into relationship, i hate the idea of it. because there was once a time when a friend of mine got into one, she totally forgot my existence and solely focused on her lover. eat with her lover, go somewhere with him, when in fact i was there before him.