All Rants

is bipolar and depression an excuse to be a bitch?

“Where’s the effort” Ain’t no one putting effort while you’re whoring around with someone else’s balloons and popping them. Go kyss while I fuck him raw

I’m not your fucking gatsby whore ass nachos I’ll be your nightmare and show you what real pain is

You fuck her via your online delusions And I’ll fuck him raw n send you the footage

You want to be bipolar and hurt the fuck out of me? I showed you my body and everything and yet, you disgrace me with that bitch ? Rot in hell, bastard. I’ll show you I’ll show how it’s done

I wanna tear my vocal cords out so I would shut up for once. I hate how loud my voice is, I’m always yelling. Then when I’m upset I get quiet. Both versions of my voice piss people off, especially my mom. “Quit yelling!” “Speak louder, I can’t hear you!” I wish I was home so I could cut myself, it’s gen the only thing that makes me feel better. I try to do the rubber band thing (like when u put it on your wrist and then snap it instead of cutting) but it doesn’t work. I hate myself, why couldn’t today be a good day, it should have been a good day. I got my prints taken for some stuff, and bc it’s wasn’t in my city, we were in a larger city. Since we were in a larger city, my parents wanted to go to a restaurant, but I didn’t rlly like any of them and I don’t wanna deal with people. I made a fuss about it I think. My mom got upset. Now we’re just getting stupid fast food bc she’s hungry. I hate myself why couldn’t I just pick a fucking restaurant. Someone kill me now🙏

I’llshow you how many guys I can pull Go have fun with that bitch’s flat balloons I’mso much prettier than her ugly bicycle seat face and you’re an ugly ape

I have been in love with you for years. You have always said we are best friends. With benefits. i wanted more . And it seemed that you were getting closer to me. I was there for you through a bad physically and mentally abusive relationship so i gave a lot of space . I had you move in with me we shared a bed . Everyone thought we were boyfriends. But you always corrected them with a quickness. I thought you were just not wanting a. Relationship . I didnt realize you were still looking for a boyfriend. A few weeks ago you started a relationship with a a. Grindr 3way hook up. Saying you felt an instant connection. Why the fuck didnt you tell me and i had ro find our feom relationship status change on Facebook which came. Up i my feed... Fuck you ! I see the great connection you two have but damnit it fuckin hurts to be rejected like i am a grindr trick fuck boy

I fucking hate myself i hate myself there's no one more i hate than myself I'm genuinely No I actually dont

My voice is an illusion, nobody listens. "WhY aRe yoU So loUd???" BECAUSE NOBODY FUCKING LISTENS UNLESS I SCREAM. They just talk and talk and talk and I say one fucking word and suddenly I'm a ghost who doesn't need attention. "We love you so much." What did I say five seconds ago? Oh that's right, you don't know because you only listen to me when its convenient. Should I even say I love you back? Its not like you'd hear me. "You get everything you ask for." BECAUSE I ATTEMPTED SUICIDE DUMBASS. And that's not even true! I ask for something from the grocery store and it never comes, my siblings MENTION wanting something ONCE and suddenly its in our pantry. Like nobody gives a fuck about what I have to say. And while I've accepted that, it'd be nice to feel heard for once. Also, I haven't been able to tell anyone but guess what??? I'm three days clean from using ai chatbots!!! Yippeee:)

Hey I don't rlly know what to do but I quit poly buzz today it's a AI chat bot and it was so mentally draining I hope u all get well soon you can do this

im sorry how rambling this is but where i am in my life right now is so embarassing.. im 19 and behind in highschool but ive also been homeschooled my whole life so im almost constantly at home unless its for work which is only down the road. i only have my permit but my parents recently bought me an e bike to get to work because it would be cheaper then me getting my license and being put on the insurance. i dont know what i want to do. ive never truly known what i wanted. as a kid it was because the world felt so big and that i had so many choices but now im here and i feel like nothing will ever be good enough. my older siblings worry about me they know that i want to not be home anymore. our parents are catholic and ive been playing catholic since the age of 12. my sister offers her home i i ever needed it but i dont like her fiance. and id rather die then live with him. i have no look to the future i just dissociate through life beside my online life where i have friends.

God, everything sucks. I hate it here and I hate everybody. Im so miserable and my friends. I dont wanna die either. Im just so tired it sucks ir sucks it sucks it sucks it sucks. I thought of dying but I need to grow up and get better and be happy.

I am surprised people find violating and SAing people arousing. Regardless of who y'all are, it is disgusting to find violating and forcing yourself on someone arousing in some way. I see these people on the Internet and I hope to God that these pathetic people to burn in Hell indefinity. If you want a sure-fire way to see any pedos btw go on Urban Dictionary and search up "pedophile". I will guarantee you that an ACTUAL pedo will defend themselves by defining it as an "illness" that they "suffer from" Like ... shut your bitchass up. Like NO it's NOT AN ILLNESS IT'S A FETISH YOU DUMBASS

I have a task paralysis problem, and everyday school feels like a nightmare, and maybe its not just school im scared of, its the reality of having to work to eat, i have to go through hell to figure out my limitations, and it cost me a lot of myself, the only time i feel free is at night, the night feels freeing, yet so dreadful knowing whats going to come tomorrow, im still in highschool (ph school system) and im an senior, and its my last year, and it feels like every coming day will get worse and worse, till i have the courage to kms, i really believed in that part so much that its hard to imagine my future anymore, i still have a lot of shit to figure out that i didnt have time in my younger years, i just want to feel free.

I hate Islam. There’s just a problem with it, but people defend it to the bitter end. I grew up in a Muslim family, but compared to my cousins, our parents never forced us to participate in it. We weren’t forced to pray, we weren’t forced to wear a hijab, and we were allowed to wear revealing clothes, experiment with our appearance, and so on. I’ve known since childhood that I don’t believe in God, and I never went through any phase of denial or anything like that. But my deep hatred stems not even from personal experience, but from seeing how my sister (again, my cousin) suffers. She really wants to take off her headscarf, wear pants and short skirts, and be more open, but her father won’t let her. She cried—I’ll never forget it. Just to be clear, I am strongly opposed to genocide and the oppression of people based on their religion, and I am strongly opposed to what is happening in Palestine. But I can’t stop hating Islam. And many believers make me hate it even more. Sorry if this sounds harsh—I was writing this in the heat of the moment :(

tu uske e-balloon phod aur mera irl me phodega

Ive been lonely my whole life, Im too weird too be normal, yet too normal to be weird, Im stuck in this weird limbo state where I maintain 2 or 3 close friends a year and I feel as if Im stuck in life. I cant even hold a normal convwrsation with people irl, and even online it feels so intimidating. Does anyone else feel like this sometimes.

I want to quick, sooooo nakakapagod

My entire family told me I have a sick heart (in my native language, that means a hard heart and a heartless person). This brought back the guilt and selfblame I thought I had overcome:)