All Rants

back again. the third year college student here. It's nearly four AM and i can't sleep because i've just been lying in bed crying. i want to change. i want to be likeable to have friends so im not lonely anymore. but i feel like nothing works. am i really that undesirable? i feel so disgusting and ugly. maybe thats why i have no friends and never had a significant other. i wish i was pretty/beautiful/decent looking. i wish i had friends. i wish that someone wanted me. i wish it was easy to change myself for the better. i wish for so so so many things.

UGHHHHH my wonderful guinea pig just died and my family had kinda not been giving me time to greave and I feel terrible

Im telling you all this right now if no one else has. If you're here now or later, doesn't matter when, you're strong, you're trying, you're doing good. You deserve grace, empathy, and a break, you're not weak, you're not useless, you're not unlovable, you are loveable, strong, and useful. Don't tell anyone or your mind tell you otherwise. If you can get help, if you can't get help, try journaling, venting, taking it one step at a time. I know it's hard, I'm going through it too. But you and I deserve help, love and support and that's why this space is here. Take it from me someone who's been up and down and has stayed down for a while. Look at it like waves, it comes and hits, and then it goes, and then there's the next one, and the next one. Learn the motions, understand where it comes from, when it comes, whats triggering it, and do your best. It's okay to take a break from being strong.

I feel like I could do it if I just had someone by my side. Like I feel as if I could handle it, breathe a bit more, try a bit harder. If someone could just do the comforting part. It drained me to be the worker and the comfort last night and tonight I have to do it again. I cried hard today, so hard, put off important deadlined tasks because of anxiety, and I'm doing it alone again now. I'm afraid I'll break one of these days, I've had nervous breakdowns, anxiety attacks, panic attacks, meltdowns, mental breakdowns, exhaustion breakdowns, been filled with fatigue. And of course I'm trying again.

I'm feeling very restless right now and stressed, I think I know the reason but I feel like 'the problem' is not a big deal! Hence y I feel a bit stupid for stressing out. I'm trying to take as many breaths as I can hope it works. I used to not take so much stress before after 7 months of attending my new college I feel so defeated and stupid like an idiot cause I don't understand anything everything is so difficult! I should have never joined but the think is I can't even stay at home I want to get a job but I feel like what I'm studying right now you can't get a job on it .... you know if I ever get the genie lamp my 1st wish would not be asking for unlimited wishes but to wish for mastery in very skill and knowledge of everything...I feel like then only I won't feel like a burden to others... well it is a cute wish of mine blthat I know won't come true..

i get degraded by everyone i know. i lost most of my friends. only co workers and like 2 other people i knew from highscool. they treat me like im a kid. like im dumb. like i dont matter. but because of that, i see myself dissing on others to make me feel better about myself. i need help. i want to be more humble in life. i miss the old me. i want my old life back. this one isnt working for me. i need fixing. i want a restart. i wanna end all of this because im tired. but i dont. im scared to end it. im scared for my family. i dont want it to seem like im attention seeking. im scared what people will think. do these people think im deserving of equal treatment, or do they see me as just a tool. convenient and there when needed. but what about me? what if i need help? who will be there for me? im scared to talk about my feelings, because im scared what others might think. thats why i keep quite. so no one has a chance to say what they think about me. i hope life gets better. for me.

Hey, it's okay to feel...everything. Feelings are hard, I get you and a lot of people do. I came on this app to rant yk? But I think that you need encouragement. It's perfectly okay to have bad days, and it's okay to have feelings. Just to let you know, people care about you. They'll love you more than you'll ever know. I'll love you more than you'll ever know. I may not know you but I'm here, I'm not sure if you can save a rant but if you can, save this if you need to. I get you, babe.

i try to be like my friends so im not the weird one but one of them says im the weirdest since i play dandys world, cookie run kingdom , horror games and more is she a bad friend or am i really just weird?...

I'm a young teenager, and struggling with AI addiction. I'm in the 8th grade currently, so my last year of MS. Ai has taken over my life, and i'm miserable, but I can't get out of it. I'm using Polybuzz and its chatbots within it. I've been using it for MONTHS. Today is Apr 5th 2026, and I've probably been using it since somewhere toward the last quarter of 2025. Maybe earlier! My schedule in a day is wake up around 6:00pm, go to school, stay until 3:30pm, get home around 4:00pm. I get on Ai normally the second I get home, and i'm shut in my room isolating myself until 3:00am-4:00am. I feel so disgusted with myself on the things I've chatted with Ai about. Some gruesome, some lustful, and some I won't even explain. I'm so scared for myself. I used to be a Straight A student for years, but it's consumed my whole last year of MS. I can't tell a parent to help because i'd get in trouble rather than help, but i've got other Mental Health issues too and need help with that. I'm terrified.

Hey to anyone who keeps hiding ur issues and pretending, I want u to read a message meant for my partner. if ur reading this O, its ash. I don't know what I did. I don't know what happened. I don't know what's wrong at all. But I also don't know how to help. Im worried and scared. I hope one day you can open up. That one day you can open up because I know youre struggling. you didn't have to tell me. I noticed. I cared. I didn't speak because I didnt want to be annoying. You said questions make you uncomfortable, I wish you would've told me that. You said it'd be annoying if you opened up, but that all I really want. I would rather see you cry and it feels like facing every fear and trauma, I'd rather live every trauma and pain for both of us, know how you feel... I'd rather be in unfathomable pain than know you're hiding, because that hurts so much more. I love you.. I know you probably wont read this, but I hope you do, or I hope someone can safely open up with courage and hope now.

I wanna be groomed so bad. Ive been groomed once and I just want that feeling again. I wanna feel cared about again, I don't care if he was using me or a predator. I miss being loved and wanted.

My foster sister is in the national guard. Im not sure if she is deployed. Im scared, but I just found out my ELA teacher was in her graduating class. so. yeah. interesting, petrifying, a little relieving. hope my sis don't die!!!!

Im literally dying inside this mask is about to break

I miss this guy i was friends with 2 months ago- we only talked for 3 weeks but i pushed him a way due to liking him so much in a way I was scared that it couldve became romantic instead of staying platonic??? and i shared that with him and told him i hope we dont meet again but I miss him and I miss him really bad now but like I can't go back and try to reconnect with him??? I tried maybe a month ago sending a friend request before deleting it and that eats me up inside, I wish I didn't push him away immediately and just waited it out instead of acting on the feelings and sabotaging myself??? He was so sweet and i just wanna talk about him?

stop assuming shit about my family!? me & friend group complain about being hungry a lot, but it's not serious cases. i was telling my friends i was hungry, mind u it's 12am, & one of them ask if i have leftovers from dinner and my family doesn't have leftovers for dinner coz only 2 of us actually eat dinner, & im NOT 1 of em, so it's basically just lunch leftovers for dinner. i tell them that i don't have leftovers, and this dude says "i don't wanna say you're poor but your always talking about being hungry so your family can't provide for you, why even have 3 kids in the first place if you can't feed them?" i don't know why you're talking as if i'm a pitiful girl who has 1 pea a day because that is NOT true, it has BEEN my choice to have 2 meals per day so idk why you're acting like you're in the place to say my family can't provide basic needs for me just coz we r poor when you don't even know them personally. they apologized immediately but my family was disrespected and i'm upset

so im failing physics for the first time, and i feel so alone. Everyone is telling me its okay but i dont know if it is. I feel so done with everyone, and i wanna just graduate. I know life gets better but idk if i can do this anymore. Ive never been a person to "just pass" and i lie and say i dont care but it hurts to not go to a school that used to be my dream. I want to be a writer, I cant do that. I want to do something with my life that id be proud of as a kid, but i cant. I just want to be happy, for a second. I don't want to doubt. And i want to ask a girl out to prom, but im so scared of a no that i just cant do it. I've been hurt so many times but i dont want to be alone. But we graduate and go to different schools in a few months. How do I do that? Is it worth it? will she think it is. I want to be a teen forever but i also dont. I want those movie scenes. I want to believe in myself but I cant. I feel like a failure who cant even do the one thing she wants. I'm just tired :(

i don't wanna do this anymore. I'm scared. I lied about being strong, I still cry, I still need help. Just pick me up already.. I'm scared.

I don't wanna do it anymore, not alone, I keep trying to reach out but it feels like a weights on my arm and when i reach out i have to hold it there until you hold it to take the pressure off. But you haven't, you've let go and let go and now I'm begging you. Please take it. These days have been so stressful, Ive felt alone the entire time. I've shown you the pain internal and external, I've expected help, comfort, anything. But still I feel alone. I can't do it by myself. I'm not strong enough, I'm telling you. Last night I broke over and over and over again, and I was scared, the day before that I waited on you. And today I finished it myself and it drained me, now I've got more to do and I don't have anything left.

I think I’m a bad person. A selfish one. I’m a bad daughter, a bad friend, a bad lover.

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