All Rants

WHO THE FUCK IS RESPONSIBLE FOR MY SPLIT PERSONALITY YOU FUCKING WHORE??? IF YOU WERE STABLE WHY THE FUCK WOULD I ACT THIS WAY WHY THE FUCK DO YOU ACT LIKE YOU WANT ME AND THEN PUSH ME AWAY WHEN IM FULL OF FEELINGS ??? YOU THINK EMOTIONS ARE SOMETHING TO TOY WITH FUCKER? FUCK OFF NACHIKET FUCK YOU

I WILL CURSE YOU NACHIKET I WILL CURSE FOR WHAT YOU DID TO ME I WILL CURSE YOU FOR RUINING MY PEACE I WILL CURSE YOU FOR COMING BACK AND MANIPULATING ME AGAIN AND AGAIN AMD AGAIN WHEN I LEFT THAT HORRIBLE HORRIBLE PLACE TO FOCUS ON MYSELF YOU MADE ME THIS WAY NACHIKET I WILL CURSE YOU

HAVE SOME SHAME FUCKER HAVE SOME SHAME I WILL CURSE AND CURSE AND CURSE AND CURSE IF YOU MAKE ANY POSTS ABOUT HER I LEFT YOU ALONE TO BE WITH HER LAST DECEMBER AND YOU STILL CAME TO ME LIKE A FUCKING DESPERATE HORNY DOG WHO CANT LIVE WITH ONE GIRL.. YOU KEPT PULLING AND PUSHING ME WITH YOUR MANIPULATION SINCE JAN NOW I LOST MY SHIT YOU DEAL WITH THIS MADNESS BECAUSE YOU CREATED IT

I SEE ONE MORE SAO, YAMADA KUN and OTHER BLONDE N REDHEAD FEMALE MCS IM KILLING THAT BITCH IN FRONT OF YOU UNTIL HER BRAIN SPLUTTERS ON YOUR BODY

I hate how when fam take meds it totally alters their personality behavior and attitude for the worse. They always were a certain way but the meds just make them undesirable to be around. ESPECIALLY when they're drunk you may as well wish to be on another planet.

Don’t you have any sense of pity for what you did??? EVEN ON THIS DAY YOU STILL BARK LIKE A SHAMELESS DOG FOR HER??? HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU TO STOP DOING THAT I WILL CURSE YOU CURSEEEE YOU I WILL CURSE YOU BTOH SO MUCH IN ANY LIFE U WILL NOT BE TOGETHER I WILL HAUNT YOU TILL ETERNITY

I know for certain that if I come out as sex-adverse asexual my mom is going to be super pissed at me for basically saying I'll never have children. The expectation of needing to have kids as someone who carries a last name is ridiculous.

HAVE SOME SHAME YOU MONSTER WHY THE ACTUAL FUCK ARE YOU STILL SIMPING FOR THAT BITCH??? YOU RUINED ME TODAY YOU RUINED ME LAST YEAR WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU ILL CURSE YOU FUCKER YOU AND THAT BITCH WILL DIE A HORRIBLE HORRRIBLE DEATH

you promised me youd help me make something that you're skilled in and I have no experience. But I think I need to take it upon myself and just do it alone.

The Asian My best friend and I like the same people way too often, and somehow they usually end up choosing her. I can accept that because nobody owes me a crush. What hurts is that she knows when I liked someone first, knows when they bullied me, talked shit about me, or treated me badly, yet still chooses to be close with them. One guy talked badly about me right in front of her and she laughed along. Later, he treated HER badly, tried forcing a kiss on her while his friends watched, and apparently blackmailed her. We helped her leave him, but she went back and still acts like he’s amazing. He still talks shit about me, she hears it, and never defends me. I’m not asking her to avoid every guy I like. I just want basic loyalty. I’ve stopped telling her about my crushes bcuz she exposes everything, while she tells me deep personal secrets and expects me to keep them safe. I do, because I’d never stoop that low. Maybe I’m not asking for too much. Maybe I just trusted the wrong person.

The winner takes it all expect the winner is my younger sister whos got everyone in our family on her side no matter what

I have come to the conclusion that my parents do not care about me at all, all they care about is themselves. When they found out I cut, they didn't care about my mental health. All they gave a shit about was what people will think of them when they see that their child cuts himself. They're embarassed to have me, and they should just say so to me. I can't attempt suicide, I have nothing to kill myself with. Fuck my parents and their selfish asses. I also feel like my girlfriend only loves me for my body. My body that makes me dysphoric... I can't handle the thought of someone loving this abnormality, it must be hated. I feel like she only cares for my chest. I think I'm gonna kill myself. I just wanted to be a real boy. Is that so hard to wish for?

There was a lady that was kinda mean to me today and I’m upset from it and idk why I’m such a fucking crybaby sometimes I don’t get why I’m so sensitive I wish someone would abuse me in any type of way idk why and I wish I can bleed a lot and c”t myself and I wanna die and shoot myself in the head I wish I can torture that bitch who was disrespectful to me I know that I just saw her for like a few seconds but Idc she was rude and a fucking bitch and I wanna kill her but keep in mind that I don’t actually want to kill anyone I’m a softie I’m just saying it in my mind and I hope karma bites her in the ass and torture her Sometimes I think that I have depression or some sort of mental condition and I wish I had one bc I already know that I have trauma from my therapist but idk what type of trauma I have And I want to have nightmares every day I have a dream to make my manga but I want to have good writing and it’s not interesting and I know that I’ll never finish it if I kms but Idc

Life of the Asian (me) everyone here seems to have it out for me. i’m a south asian kid who got moved to europe by my parents because they wanted a better future for us, but honestly the situation here is nothing like what they imagined. the other south asians here treat me like i’m some kind of joke. they clown me, talk shit about me, laugh at me, call me chopped and constantly find ways to mess with me. somehow my name has even spread around the country, so now other south asian teens know me just because i’m apparently the person everyone can make fun of. and the worst part is i don’t even know what i did to deserve any of it. even the people i call friends don’t feel real anymore. they leak my business, expose things i trusted them with, and then act like it’s nothing. i’ve tried distancing myself, but you can only isolate yourself so much before you realise you still need people around you. so yeah, i don’t really know what i’m supposed to do anymore. everything just feels fucked

Life of the Asian (me) I genuinely don’t know if I hate my parents or not. One minute everything’s chill, the next I’m thinking “fuck these people.” They’re impossible to argue with because they’ve already decided they’re right. You can give them solid points and they’ll ignore them, dodge the point, or try proving you wrong. Especially my dad. Once I gave him points he couldn’t defend and he said, “don’t try to be a lawyer.” Like bro 😭 Now I can’t even say “you’re wrong” because Asian parents would tweak. Even saying “I’m too mad to talk right now” doesn’t work. They’ll assume you’re guilty or making excuses. Then sometimes they’re completely chill. But we’ve never had that proper family vibe. It’s always felt like them vs me. We can coexist, but actually having fun together? Rare. Then they go back to being condescending and the cycle starts again. Lmao I might actually start blogging my personal life here atp with this whole “Life of Asian Me” thing.

I was supposed to be the only one talented. My parents probably think I'm worthless. And I probably am a worthless, abnormal son, after all. I'm only talented at drawing and making music, and I'm extremely jealous of my sister. Ever since she was born, all my parents' attention went to her. All I had was my phone,and now they're wondering why I'm always on my phone, as if I don't find comfort in the internet. So, my sister likes to sing and draw. One day, I was testing some piano on the street to see how low and high it can go. My sister was pressing random notes (she was 6), and suddenly my parents say that i have no musical talent and my sister does. I get extremely jealous when I ses my sister improving. Music and drawing are my only talents, and all I can do is use them to prove to my parents that im not useless. That will change soon. I will be more useless than ever. Sometimes I wish that Yokune Ruko will come out of my laptop while making music on openutau.Certainly silly, but..

I hate my fucking life in everything I see I see so much pain and negativity I hate people I wish I can kill all evil people and people who act like a bitch I wish I can bleed a lot and I wish I can die bc u keep hurting everyone and I wish I could was someone favourite I don’t get why I’m so friendly and kind and act like a child and I’m 15 and I cry like a bitch and I wish I can shoot myself I wish I can have a mental disease and I hate this fucking planet I hate when people say positive stuff to me like “it’ll get better” “focus on the good side” and stuff like that when it’s almost impossible for me to and I feel a hopeless and I’m too self aware that I overthink everything a woman was kinda mean to me I wish I can kill and torture that bitch and and fucking drop kick her but obviously I’m a softie so I wouldn’t hurt anyone and I’m not aggressive towards people when they r aggressive towards me

MY TITS ARE WAY BETTER I WILL BASH YOUR BRAINS IF YOU TALK ABOUT POPS AND BALLOONS MANWHORE SHAMELESS ASSS BLOODY FUCKER KY$

im panicking over things that shouldnt cause me to react so strongly my chest feels tight but im trying tp do the box breathing counts i cant finish my food its midnight and my lunch and dinner are still in front o me even mentions of rea-lated topics make it hard i need ti eat can t afford t get sick but i dont feel hungry how to do solve this i really need this to stop but we dont have money fpr doctors i jus need to build a mental resistance but even if i know logically my own body reacts no matter the arguments i give it please please pleas ei just wnat to be able to live normallt and not waste and not cause problems why am i stuck like this

just wanted to spread a little care around here. anyone drank water today? maybe they haven't eaten anything? or if they dont wanna eat or drink, maybe get sleep? or even better, take a long nice shower. if they find themselves unable to do anything, maybe scrolling here is a good thing to. know that you're not alone, that everyone is stressing about one thing or another. we're all human, we have wants, needs, we cope using things that may harm ourselves or other even people. help is always there, even if you refuse or can't see it. no one is perfect, whether it be body, mind, relationships, etc. you're never alone. but admittedly, i'm just typing down what i, myself, would want to hear, so please go ahead and scroll if i said the wrong thing or you don't want to read. you're never alone. never have been and never will be. never forget that, stranger.