My cousin at the moment is grieiving. I used to live with ehr and speak to her everyday and since moved out around 4 weeks ago just after her mums funeral. we were really close and still are really close but I am struggling with the fact that she needs her own space and is hard to get a response, text or phone call from and it makes me dount her close we are and it hurts as I keep thinking she means more to me then I do to her. It is her birthday tomorrow and id like to do soemthing with her but when I bring it up she says she doesnt want to do anything but then I heard from someone else she is going for dinner tonight with friends but im not sure if it is a surpirse and I didnt get invited or she knows about it and doesnt want tme there. I spent all day yesterday checking if she was active and was constantly active but didnt reply to any of my messages whihc makes me spiral thinking she is replying to other poeple but not me which shoes she doesnt value me