Today Today my I asked my father for the first time in a while to take me somewhere…he refused without even thinking about it…and when my sibling asked him to take her somewhere…he agreed instantly…I dk why..but I feel bad…not because he refuse (maybe a little)…but because I was rejected infront of everyone and then he causally allowed somone else the same thing I asked for..sometimes I question does he even love me and sometimes I question do I even deserve his love ,I am not used to my father like this..he wasn’t always like this..idk why he suddenly changed..did I do something wrong..ik I always disappointe him I am a big disappointment…but I don’t want him to hate me I am still his daughter …and I love him really I can never hate him…I just wish he would return to when I was a child when he used to remember me first thing get me the stuff I wanted and always make me happy..not like now..it’s almost every night I cry because of him…because of how much of I disappointment I became