i've been living with this feeling of being so undeniably unlovable and unwanted. i've always had bad anxiety and fears that people in my life don't actually like me. that if i stop reaching out they wouldn't bother checking in on me or that i'm just easily replicable. factor in now, i confessed feelings to someone i'm close with. he and i had originally planned on hooking up and i had started to develop feelings for him as we kept talking. turns out he was seeing another girl, he said he had feelings for her and now he's dating her. he called me all the time, at work, on his days off. we played games together just for him to say a girl he'd see once or twice a week was who he wanted. he's dating her now and i confessed because i couldn't keep living with this feeling. now it's something we don't talk about. but all i think about is that this is somehow who enjoyed being my friend but didn't deam me enough to like. to love. and i still talk to him daily and it hurts.