i drunkenly told one of my close friends i still had feelings for him. he has a girlfriend and i called him at 1am. drunk and crying. telling him i know we don't talk about it anymore but i didn't had feelings. i told him i didn't want to feel like this anymore and that asked if he ever even liked me. but i shut his answer down. i told him not to tell me in the morning. when i called the next day he asked if i remembered anything, i lied and he kept his promise. i know he's acting different but i can't ask without revealing i lied. my heart still hurts from the rejection, from knowing that all i'll ever be is his best friend and he'll never return my feelings. we keep living with this thing we don't talk about and it's hurting me. i don't want it to hurt anymore.