RE: animalsinmyhead Thank you for your kind message. I appreciate you opening up to me and sharing your experiences. It feels good to know that there is hope, and I'm glad you found that. For context, I'm 25. I mentioned rasing his child as it's my stepson. He came from a one night stand before I met my partner. I've never cheated however my partner has virtually. (Paying for porn, chatting with girls online etc) and we have been trying to move on from this. When things are good, they're really good but there can be a lot of tension in between. When I opened up about being sexually assaulted by his friend when I was 16, I think that was the biggest rift we had. It took us a few months before things felt normal again but then more things just keep coming up. I work two jobs, care for my disabled mother who I have a rough relationship with, and it never feels like I do enough. I'm currently unmedicated for ADHD (6 months waiting list) which is probs why he calls me erratic.