I tried killing myself 3 times, cut myself more times than I can count. Starved myself as a punishment everyday. I feel like I’m loosing a battle in me. Don’t get me wrong I want to live, but lately things have been going worse, they updated my dosage on anti depressants. But yet I can’t stop, I can’t stop thinking about killing myself I sometimes go to sleep dreaming and making fake scenarios where I die. That’s how bad I want to die, is getting harder to control my emotions and to put up an act that I care, and the smiles. I’m so tired I just want to go to an endless sleep. I want to die and I want to die soon.
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