i have so many friends but sometimes i just feel so lonely. i cant remember the last time one of them messaged me instead of me messaging them. like when i wanna go out, they're the first people i think about when i wanna go out and i get so excited about even the idea of it before i ask them but i just saw on instagram that three of them went out without me. I don't even mind that they did; it's not that, like, I wouldn't have been able to go anyway because I had work, but it's the fact that they didn't even ask me... like almost 10 years of being friends and they didnt ask if i wanted to go. and the place was somewhere i LOVE. It's literally one of the things I love to do, and they just didnt invite me?? ik they dont even like the place that much they just went to take pretty pics but like what?? i didnt even cross their mind :( even on birthdays, whenever its someone's birthday theres always this sort of gc or plan or whatever but when its mine, i always end up doing my own... :(