I don’t think I’ll ever truly love somebody. I have an extremely loving partner, that shows me affection and everything somebody needs to feel fulfilled and loved. Yet I wouldn’t have an issue with them leaving or loosing feels for me. Honestly it would hurt my ego a little knowing they lost interest but other than that I wouldn’t really care after a few weeks. I’d be bored and text them again but no feelings behind. I don’t know, it’s the same with friendships and whenever, if I miss somebody it’s only because I have nothing else to do or I’m bored. I wish I could love somebody they way they love Me, people treat me better than I deserve. Idk if I’m struggling with avoidant attachment or I just can’t truly catch feelings for somebody. After getting that dopamine from meeting somebody I loose interest and have no real intentions with them. I feel extremely bad for my Partner, I’ve tried to leave 3 times now.