These days I've been feeling like I need someone in my life. Not like a friend or family, but like, in a sense of romantic feelings. I want to have someone, but I feel it's near impossible because I'm a girl, and I think I like girls too. Like, I went to a trip a few weeks ago, and there was this girl, and she was so nice and a good vibe, and oil so pretty and everything. But problem was she's 18, and I'm 16. So that's one problem, but then of course, she's straight. It's like, what's the point of even trying to talk to her if I know there's no chance? lIKE, IT FURSTRATES ME SO MUCH.

im so useless, even tho i try my best to help i fuck it up everytime

I have been feeling so stupid. I thought I could work in a long distance relationship. After feeling neglected for months I finally told her how I felt, and that something needed to change cause I can't keep crying over this. Jokes on me, cause yesterday she was barely online at all and I spent the whole morning crying anyway. Today is a new day where she hasn't texted me during her day cycle, and again, I am spending the morning crying. I worry that now that I've expressed a need, she'll dump me. I worry about that every time I express a need to anyone. I just want to be loved, I want to have my emotional needs met. I need to feel like someone cares if I'm down or if I haven't been eating, if I've been waking up to nightmares for three nights in a row. It always feels like a sin to need comfort, worst of all to ask for it. Like a sin to voice a need. I love her, and I need her. I need her to care like I care for her. Am I so unlovable I can't ever have that?