i ranted way too much today but i can't help it i feel so sad but i don't know if i actually feel this way or i am just pretending no matter what i do it feels so fake on top of all my problems i also have to question and doubt them as if i wasn't already dealing with enough anxiety and distrust, i feel so unimportant and i don't know i feel a bunch of feelings right now it's like everything i've bottled up so far is slowly spilling out i either be like this or feel nothing and numb