Just found out I was a victim of cosca. I don’t know how to feel about it, it explains kind of why I was hypersexual at a young age. I mean I can remember but I can’t in detail…I did get the confirmation from my grandma that one day when I was four I came home and when I was about to shower she saw my underwear had blood, cuz the little boy that was my same age and also my bully used a pencil…I stayed mute about it I didn’t say anything. But when I asked my mother for details yesterday, cuz she heard these things from my grandma she said “they’re kids they don’t know what they’re doing they probably just sticked it in just because they think they can stick anything when they see a hole” (cuz they used to also hurt my ears by stuffing papers or some sharper things till it bleed) I mean that’s crazy. It’s hard for me to process everything. I don’t remember because of memory block, I didn’t even know the part that for a period of time I suffered of depression at 4 and was really underwei