I cant fuckin do this shit anymore im so done being treated like complete utter dog shit im tired of being hit and yelled at but I like the pain im so confused by myself that it might just be easier to give up im fighting daily just to get up from bed and open my eyes and smile but no one appreciates what Im doing ever its like im a disposable thing they chose to reuse daily like why cant i just give up I already attempted twice so why did I fail both times its so stupid and selfish of me right but im so tired of being selfless im so done with everyone always having comments about me and making fun of me and calling me shit i cant take it anymore and I want to die but I know when people want to die they say goodbye and thanks and shit but I just want to die in front of everyone and say yall treated me like shit so badly I wanted this I cant hold it back much longer im fed up of starving myself and im tracking my water right but no one can leave my shit alone so whats the point of me ge

I need a hug, I need to feel like I belong somewhere. (group, society, etc). There's a topic that is so tough for me to talk about and that is my hearing impairment, diagnosis that I have and wearing hearing aids. I know that it may seem cool that they work like normal phones or iPods, but there's a much more worse story behind... I've been wearing hearing aids for years now because of being impaired with "Bilateral Mean Hearing Loss" which isn't such a big diagnosis, if you think about it..But it is...wearing them it always comes as a reminder that the inside part of the ears hurt, that I have to turn them low when I feel like I get too nauseous, etc. Not only this, but like getting used to the fact that they can be chargeable and always having to have a specific routine with them, adds up on that negativity. I've seen them as a positive thing for years, I'm just done with how used to them I got and the fact that I just wanna be NORMAL once..😔

I still have sexual thoughts of my ex girlfriend and I want the thoughts to go away